regret with a capital "R"

have you ever been frustrated or angry with someone, but you take it out on someone else? that happened to me tonight. would it be safe to say that my months of counseling have gone out the window in mere seconds? i would have to say "yes" because instead of responding, i reacted. i reacted in such a way that i have never reacted before, especially towards this one individual, and i wish i could take it all back. as i am writing this, tears are streaming down my face because i feel like the worst person in the world right now. i would have broken down earlier, but it's easier for me to put up my walls. after all, i've been doing that for YEARS. i do regret how i treated this person, more than anyone could ever know. i don't think i have ever apologized for something as much as i did tonight.