why?

first of all, let me just start out by saying that my mom celebrated a very happy birthday yesterday. we went out to dinner and just enjoyed a nice quiet evening. mom, i hope all your birthday wishes came/come true and here's to many more celebrations. i feel bad for not writing last night; my intentions were to journal the days' happenings, but i fell alseep with the computer on my lap in bed! guess i was more tired than i thought. i have not been feeling well either, so i'm sure that had a lot to do with it. i have no voice and a very sore throat...oh and today, i started with this terrible cough. wonderful!

i worked at sophie's school again on thursday and friday. that's always fun. the kids keep a person so busy so the days go by really fast. sophie was very well behaved and went about her work like i wasn't even there...good job sophie!

so, today i went to counseling, took sophie to dance, you know...just our usual saturday kinda day. however, as i sit here and write, my 82 year old nana is at community hospital's emergency room awaiting the results of her ekg, chest x-ray and blood work. she had been feeling a little lightheaded and nauseous. i would have taken her, as i was the only one home with her that could drive, but as we were getting ready to leave, one of my aunts drove up and after hearing that i was sick, offered to take nana instead. so now, i am getting updates via texts and phone calls. this waiting game is not fun. please keep her in your prayers that God touches her body and takes away whatever is ailing her.

you know, it is at times like this that one sits back and reflects on all that is important in life...and all that is not. i've said it before, but i'll say it again. life is just too damn short...plain and simple! we should be enjoying life, people that we love, things we enjoy doing. instead, for most of us, the negativity and criticisms bring us down and keep us from enjoying life. i have promised myself over and over again not to let anyone bring me down. after all, it's what i've been going to counseling for, right?! i am somebody and i matter. i want to surround myself around positive things and people, for living my life like i used to will not allow for any personal growth. this is exactly how satan would want it, but i have to mold my life in a way that God would be proud and be a Christ-like example to others. this is my personal prayer; i need to take care of me if i am to be of any good to someone else, but mostly my daughter. I just ask that at this time, you keep nana in your prayers. pray for her strength and for our family. we can always use the prayers, but need them especially now.

love to all!
c